.: Easy Life :.

Oh why cant life always be this easy?

.: LoVe ? :.

Do we fall in love?

Or 

Do we fall for love?

Remembering back in the days

when i fell in love..

now?

Do I just fall for love?

I wanna fall in love

I am tired of falling for love..

.:Shots of Love:.

I'm taking your shots of love one at a time

and hoping

that there will be no hangover

when the time sobriety comes..

.: Place :.

I stumbled upon this picture earlier today,

A picture about a place,

One hell pretty place,

Where i left my heart and my love..

I thought i am over you,

But i am not,

You are still inside,

Deep down inside..

.: Dreams :.

People say that dreams are actually the unconscious feelings

and thoughts that you have deep down inside..

Some say that dreams are predictions of what is going to happen next..

Some believe that dreams are the contradictory to reality..

Anyways, I had a dream..

A bad one..

Dream about him..

That after we ended everything, we still have one movie ticket that we bought long,

before the break up..

In that dream, i came late to the theatre, hoping that he will be there and wait for me

already..

I was wrong..

That stupid shit never shows up..

I cried in that theater..

being alone..

among the audiences that laugh to the comedy serves in the movie..

or to me?

and my stupidity, naiveness and broken heart?

Am I that stupid?

That idiot?

That even strangers laugh at me..

I am lonely though..

My heart aches..

Painfully aches..

God please heal me..

Heal me o' Lord..

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.: Happy Birthday Frank :.

Happy Birthday Frank!

I wish you all the best..

With all the love in the world..

Meanwhile, i finished the book..

i miss him still, even when i am in the club..

when so may people around me..

yes, my heart is empty..

his space is empty..

and this is the cd cover i designed for him as well..

and this is the wrap together with the book and the cd..

I called him earlier to wish him happy birthday, but he did not pick up..

As I closed and wrapped the book this morning..My heart ached..

This is supposed to be the end of everything..

Closed chapters, closed memories and stories..

I am supposed to get going and moving with my life..

But, i dont feel the excitement..

I know that i can not keep living in the past like this..

Damn..

But I trust in my Lord..

Let Him heals and let Him enable me..

Lord,

I will trust in You!

.: My Prayer :.

I have tried..

But then i failed..

I have walked far enough..

Run..

And hide..

Yet it still follows..

Now i really turn to my God..

Lord please help me..

Wrap me up in your hand..

And give your mercy for me..

I just wanna be with You..

In your presence..

Take me Lord..

Heal me Lord..